What I did today.

7/28/2007 05:53:00 PM Edit This 0 Comments »
Well for starters I played with Kaity all morning...she was in one of her moods again where she needed constant attention. I love it but you can only chase her around the house for so long before it gets old. We then moved onto reading one of her books but she kept going back and forth so many times in the book to where I could receit what was on the page by heart.
I talked to Shannon for awhile and then had lunch with Brian. Kaity laid down for her afternoon nap and slept almost 2 hours! She was tired since she had been up since 8.
Shannon called me back and we talked some more and then Kaity woke up from her nap. Her and I went to the store since I had to go grocery shopping for things that I needed for dinner. I am in the process of making chicken stuffed with garlic mayo spread on the inside with fresh basil, sun dried tomatos and provolone cheese. I am having on the side asparagus seasoned with salt, pepper and olive oil and cous-cous with sun dried tomatos, basil and garlic. I am trying to make a special dinner for Brian to come home to and I hope he loves it....

I had SO much fun today!

7/20/2007 08:44:00 PM Edit This 0 Comments »
Brian and I went bowling for our date night and I beat him two games to one. Only reason he beat me was because I had one to many beers. I am going to post the pics on my myspace page tonight after we pick up our chinese take out and after Kaity goes to bed. I absolutely love him to pieces! He is the most wonderful husband! He is truly a needle in the haystack!

Hello everyone!

7/19/2007 07:43:00 PM Edit This 0 Comments »
Well it's my friday again at the airport (yea!) and I can't wait to get off! As usual the flight to BWI (1211) is late. Sometimes I hate Southwest but I know it isn't their fault.

Had breakfast with Shannon, Brian and Kaity today before work which was wonderful. I had the sourdough burger and it was surprisingly really good. Will have to do that again next time I go.

Kind of a sad blog post today but I really don't have to much to add...maybe tomorrow when I am off I might have more to write.

Well gotta go...my lunch break is up.

Today has been interesting

7/18/2007 08:04:00 PM Edit This 0 Comments »

Well not really but it would have been nice if it had been.
The pic above is of Grandfather Mountain looking at it from the parking lot.
Again I am sitting over at cargo as I always do every tuesday and wednesday from 5 til 9. Sad thing is I always look forward to these two days a week as they are a much needed break from the stress at the airport. I still remember the day I was told that I had to do it and I wasn't to keen on the idea but now I love coming over here!
So what else is going on...Kaity and I woke up within 30 minutes of each other this morning and we had eggs and sausage for breakfast. She absolutely loves eggs...girl can't get enough of them I swear. I gave her a bath and she stayed in the tubs until her little fingers and toes turned pruny.
She is turning into this little person that is becoming so independent that it scares me sometimes to think that one day she will grow up way to quickly before my eyes. They always say kids grow up fast and I agree. I mean just the other day (or as it feels like it was) she was eating baby food and formula. Now she is onto regular food (she almost all of her teeth in) and now milk. Heck she can even drink out of a straw and has been doing it for quite some time now. She holds the cup in one hand and uses her other hand to hold the straw to her mouth. She takes a sip and when she is done she goes "ahhh" like it was the best thing she has ever drank before! It is so cute and too funny!
Oh I colored my hair...again. This time I went red. Everyone says it brings out the blue in my eyes...which are blue enough as it is. I always change my hair style. I guess it is my way of changing my look completely. I don't think I have been my natural hair color for quite some time now. The closest was probably my last dye job, but even then I had highlights.
So what else...well I am going to breakfast with Shannon tomorrow at IHOP and I can't wait as I hardly get to spend any time with her any more. Probably a good thing sometimes since she is pregnant. I am kinda getting the "baby bug" again but am adamant about Kaity being an only kid. I have the "been there, done that" shirt because of her. Besides I know of six women who are pregnant right now...something in the water right? So in the mean time I will just live vicariously through Shannon all things baby related.

So what am I up to today.....

7/17/2007 05:41:00 PM Edit This 0 Comments »

Currently I am here....bored....sitting over here waiting for boxes to come in so I can have something to screen. Work thus far has been slow and I can't wait for August 3rd. That is the day that Brian and I are going to Cedar Point! I can hardly wait....it gives me something to look forward to. It gives me something to help get through the day!

Hi from my phone!

7/17/2007 10:11:00 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
I have recently learned that I can now update my blog....which I haven't done in a while....from my phone. This is so cool. So now when I am bored at work or whatever I can write down all of my thoughts on here....awesome!

Very long questionaire that I filled out

2/21/2007 08:24:00 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
ABOUT YOU
What's your name?:
Pam
Ever used any other names?:
Pamela
Do you have any nicknames?:
Pam, Pammy, and Pamwich
Where were you born?:
Ohio
Where do you live now?:
North Carolina
When were you born?:
03/20/1981
What is your sign?:
Pisces
What is your Chinese zodiac sign?:
Rooster
Are you married/single/divorced/widowed/taken?:
Married
Do you have any children?:
Yes
What are your parents names?:
Gale,Joy (step-mom), Susan and Robert (step-dad)
Do you have any siblings?:
Step brother, 2 step-sisters, 2 sisters and 1 brother
Are you closer to your Mom or Dad?:
My mom
Are your parents still together?:
No
What kind of home do you live in?:
House
What are your living arrangements?:
At home with my family
Do you have any pets?:
None
Do you collect anything?:
Frog stuff
What do you do for a living?:
TSO and a Mother
How much money do you make in a year?:
It's not how much I make but rather how much I have
What kind of vehicle do you drive?:
A Corolla
What color is your bedroom flooring?:
Tan
How big is your bed?:
A king
Do you sleep with any one/thing in the bed with you?:
Aside from my hubby....my cuddly pillow, and no I am not 2!
Do you like thunderstorms?:
LOVE THEM
Do you know how to swim?:
Am I pisces aren't I?
Do you know CPR?:
Yes
Would you rather fly, take a bus, take a train, or drive on a trip?:
Road trips are the best!!!!
When did you graduate from high school?:
1999
What high school did you graduate from?:
Eastwood High
Do you sing in the shower?:
No
Do you read on the toilet?:
Not there long enough
YOUR FAVORITES
Color?:
Blue or Pink
Food?:
Italian and popcorn
Restaurant?:
Chamas Churrascaria and believe me it's awesome
Season?:
Summer
Holiday?:
4th of July
Animal?:
Frog
Clothing item?:
Jeans
Scent?:
Love Spell or Heavenly
Shampoo?:
Kerastase
Non-alcoholic beverage?:
Perrier and any diet soda
Alcoholic beverage?:
Hoegarden and Grey Goose with Cranberry
Store to shop in?:
Gap and Abercrombie
Author?:
Thomas Harris
Actor/actress?:
Val Kilmer
Movie?:
The Shining
Book?:
Hannibal Rising
Director?:
Tobe Hooper
Musical artist or group?:
The Engine Room, Gabriel & Dresden, or Staind
Song?:
Epiphany by Staind and A Perfect Lie by The Engine Room
Music genre?:
Country, Rock and Industrial
Ideal vehicle?:
That that gets me from A to B
Sport to watch?:
Football, non-sport Nascar
Sports team?:
Rams, Buckeyes and Devils
Sport to play?:
Rock, Paper, Scissors
TV show?:
CSI
Card game?:
Gin Rummy or Poker
Board game?:
Chess
HAVE YOU EVER.....
Been arrested?:
Nope
Been in jail?:
Nope
Stolen anything?:
When I was a kid
Cheated on someone?:
Hell no!!!
Lied to a friend?:
Only a white lie
Lied to a relative?:
Again white lies only
Lied to someone you were in a relationship with?:
Yes my ex-fiance
Killed anything?:
Insects and a skunk
Hit an animal with your vehicle?:
Yea a skunk
Called out of work for no reason?:
Yep
Skipped school?:
Never not even senior skip day
Gone bungeee jumping?:
Yep twice
Gotten a tattoo?:
I have 3
Gotten a piercing?:
I have three
Been in a fight?:
Yep
Lost a fight?:
Nope
Done any gambling?:
In Canada
Cheated at a game you were playing?:
Who hasn't?
Pretended something was worse than it was for sympathy?:
Why?
Made a prank phone call?:
Just the other day...Hi Dominic!!!
Been drunk?:
Yep
Been drunk enough to puke?:
Once or twice
Puked on someone?:
Been puked on
Peed your pants since being an adult?:
Nope
Fainted or passed out?:
Nope
Seen a dead body?:
Yea, grew up next to a funeral home as a kid
Seen someone die?:
Yes
Been in love?:
Many a time
Been married?:
Once
Loved someone you couldn't tell?:
Yes
Fallen for a friend?:
Yes
Had sex with someone you were not in a relationship with?:
Oh yea
Been the person someone cheated on someone else with?:
Nope that's just as wrong as cheating
Dumped someone?:
Yes
Been dumped?:
When my ex left me
Lost someone you loved?:
In high school
Cried because your heart was broken?:
Got over it quickly though
Loved someone so much it made you cry?:
Yes
Done something illegal or immoral?:
Who hasn't
Been high?:
Nope
Bought drugs?:
Nope
Sold drugs?:
Nope
Broken something when you were angry?:
Hate to admit that one
Punched an inanimate object in anger?:
Yes
Lied about yor age?:
Can't think if I ever have
Had your license suspended or revoked?:
No
Been in a car accident?:
Yes and not my fault
Gotten a ticket?:
Nope
Given a gift "just because"?:
All the time
Forgotten someone's birthday or your own anniversary?:
No
Bounced a check?:
No
Had an overdrawn bank account?:
No
Kissed someone of the same sex?:
Yes
ABOUT YOUR PERFECT SIGNIFICANT OTHER
Age range?:
Within 10 years of my age
Height?:
As long as they are taller
Build?:
As long as they don't have dunlop disease
Hair color?:
Brown
Hair style?:
Their own (just not a mullet)
Eye color?:
Blue
MORE ABOUT YOU
Religious preference?:
Lutheran
Political affiliation?:
I am independent
Ever worn glasses, contacts, or braces?:
Yes I wear contacts and I did wear braces
Describe yourself in 4 words:
Outgoing, Positive, Pessimistic, Romantic
Describe your perfect mate in 4 words::
Same as my description
Name 4 places you have lived::
Ohio, Michigan, Germany, North carolina
Name four occupations you have had::
Post Office, Store manager, Landscape Designer and TSO
If you could have 3 wishes, what would they be?:
To live long, to live happily, and to be taller
Do you miss someone right now?:
Yes
Do you have a crush on someone right now?:
Yes
What shoes did you wear today?:
Flip Flops
What are you wearing right now?:
Jeans and a shirt
What time is it right now?:
9:55 pm
IF you could vacation any 2 places in the world, where would they be?:
Japan and Austrailia
Name 4 things you'd rather be doing right now?:
Laundry, talking to Ned, talking to Shannon, reading
When was the last time you wrote someone a letter and who was it?:
My aunt a month ago
Who was the last person to write you a letter?:
My aunt
Who was the last person you got an email from?:
Mellissa
Who was the last person you sent an email to?:
Michelle
Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?:
Ned
Who was the last person you kissed?:
Kaity
Who was the last person you hugged?:
Brian
Who was the last person you said "I Love You" to?:
Brian
Name 4 places you have been on vacation::
Mexico, Canada, Bahamas, and the Outer Banks
Name your 5 best friends::
Steve, Shannon, Mark, Ned and Brian of course
THIS OR THAT
Coke or Pepsi?:
Either
Mickey D's or BK?:
Neither
Chinese or Mexican?:
Mexican
Cats or Dogs?:
Dogs
Fish or Birds?:
Fish
Reptiles or Amphibians?:
Amphibians
Early Bird or Night Owl?:
Night Owl
Winter or Summer?:
Summer
Spring Break or Christmas Vacation?:
Spring Break
Hambuger or Cheeseburger?:
Cheeseburger
Chocolate or Vanilla?:
Chocolate
A LITTLE MORE ABOUT YOURSELF
What are you afraid of?:
Losing my family
What is your mood right now?:
Complacent
Name 4 things you like to do for fun::
Read, drive around aimlessly, get into tickle fights, and work on anything baby related
Ever been skinny dipping?:
Yes
Do you smoke?:
Sometimes
Do you drink?:
Oh yea
Do you believe in love at first sight?:
Lust at first sight
Would you rather have 10 aquaintances or 2 close friends?:
2 close friends
If you had a child today, what would you name it?:
Ava for a girl, Tyler for a boy
Do you know the words to The Star Spangled Banner?:
Yes
Do you like fire?:
Yes
Are you afraid to die?:
Nope
Do you believe in Heaven and Hell?:
Sorta
Do you own a cell phone?:
Yes
Name 4 websites you visit every time you get on a computer::
Blogger, Yahoo, Myspace, The Onion
Where is your computer?:
In the living room
What are you listening to right now?:
The Engine Room
What is the last CD you got?:
I don't I burn them all from online
What is the last gift someone gave you?:
My mother's ring
What is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you?:
Doesn't take much for someone to do something nice for me
How would your friends describe you?:
10-73
When was the last time you cried?:
Yesterday
What was the last thing you ate?:
Pasta with roasted garlic, tomato and spinich with havartti cheese
Do you prefer mini blinds, shades, or drapes?:
Shades
Do you have any pets?:
Nope
When was the last time you moved?:
Not that long ago
Do you get along with your neighbors?:
Don't know them yet
Are you friends with any of your exes?:
Nope their are ex's for a reason
Do you get along better with guys or girls?:
guys
How do you want to die?:
In a way that everyone will remember
Do you bathe daily?:
Yes
Do you prefer baths or showers?:
Both
What is your favorite sleeping position?:
On my left side with my back up against Brian's back
Would you prefer to sleep in a warm room or a cold room?:
Cold room
Who was the last person who drove you somewhere?:
Brian
Where was the last palce you drove to?:
The store this morning to get the fixins for ruebens
When was the last time you took a "road trip"?:
When we went to a winery
How many DVDs do you own?:
Too many
How many CDs do you own?:
Again too many
What is your favorite radio station?:
99.9 and 105.1
What is your favorite cologne or perfume on someone else?:
Chrome for a guy, Love Spell for a girl
What is your favorite cologne or perfume?:
Ginger from Origins, Love Spell and Heavenly from VS
What is your least favorite smell?:
Anything Fruity
ABOUT DATING
Is it okay for a girl to ask a guy out or should the guy always ask?:
Hell yea a girl can ask a guy out. I did it to Brian
Do you think the guy should always pay on the first date?:
No Dutch
Where would you go on an ideal date with someone?:
Chamas Churrascaria and then to a wine
bar afterwards
Do you like public displays of affection?:

YES!!!
Would you rahter go to a theater or cuddle on the couch and watch a DVD?:
Cuddle
Do you know what the "door lock" test is?:
Yes I sure do ;)!!!
When was the last time someone hit on you?:
Honestly, two days ago.
Are you a flirt?:
It's in my nature.
MISCELLANEOUS QUESTIONS
What was the last thing you bought?:
Groceries
When was the last time you stayed awake for over 24 hours?:
The day before Kaitys' MRI
What is the last movie you watched?:
The Departed
What is the last movie you saw in a theater?:
Hannibal Rising
Did you get anything in the mail today?:
Junk mail and a few magazines
Do you have myspace?:
Oh yea
What was the last comment you got on your myspace?:
It was from AC
What was the last comment you put on someone's myspace?:
B.Ray
If you could have any job in the world what would it be?:
Princess
If you could only have one food for the rest of your life what would it be?:
popcorn
What would you do with a million dollars?:
Ha Ha let's think.....what have I done so far?
Have you ever been in the hospital?:
Yes
What is your least favorite food?:
Seafood since I am allergic
Tell me something I may not know about you?:
I am a romantic
In the last week, has anyone told you a secret?:
Yes
Are you straight, gay, or bi?:
I am straight
Have you ever dyed your hair?:
Yes
What were you doing for a living 9 years ago?:
Babysitting
Who were you with 9 years ago?:
Still living at home
Have you gained or lost weight since high school?:
Stayed the same
What was your favorite subject in high school?:
Physics, Chemistry, and Pre-Calculus
Were you in any clubs/sports/activities in high school?:
Track and Cross Country
What is your favorite number?:
13
Do you have any lucky charms?:
Yes, I have three
Are you superstitious?:
No
Do you believe in ghosts?:
Sorta
What do you think of psychics?:
Now they are 10-73
Are you picky about grammar or spelling?:
Yes very much so, that's why there is spellcheck
How many keys on your key chain?:
5
How many rings until you answer the phone?:
3
What is your favorite ice cream flavor?:
Cherry Cordial
When did you lose your virginity?:
When I was 18
Who was the last relative you talked to?:
My Aunt Pam
Have you ever aced an exam?:
All the time
What is your most used catch phrase?:
Nice
What's the best pick-up line you've ever heard?:
I haven't
What is the best compliment you have ever heard or received?:
Your have a beautiful daughter
Do you think you are attractive?:
Yes
Would you rather take a picture or be in a picture?:
Be in a pic
Number of things in your past that you regret::
Never regret anything that once mad you smile
What is the craziest thing you have ever done?:
Oh so not going there
Do you have any bad habits?:
Not bad persay
Do you have any psychological impairments?:
None
Are you taking any prescription medications?:
Nope
How long did it take you to complete this survey?:
About 45 minutes

Kaity has taken her first steps!!!!!

2/11/2007 01:55:00 PM Edit This 0 Comments »
My baby girl is now well on her way to walking. We had her over at her grandma and grandpa's house yesterday. When Brian went to pick her up they told him that she had walked. They showed Brian and then when I got home from work Brian showed me. If you stand her up a few feet from you she will walk to you. It isn't perfect, it's only a few steps but it's a start. I couldn't believe it!!! She is only nine months old and is already well on her way to walking. She will most certainly be walking by the time she is a year old that's for sure. I love it. She is almost to what I call the fun age. Not that she isn't fun now, but she will soon be able to walk and run and chase and play. I will be loving it as that is my favorite age when it comes to kids.

2/02/2007 05:36:00 PM Edit This 0 Comments »


I am sick today which is awful considering that I always seem to be getting sick lately. As one of the guys at work put it.......we work where probably close to three thousand people come in each day. No wonder. I hate it because as soon as I get sick Brian and Kaity get sick soon after and wouldn't you know it, Brian feels something coming on and Kaity has a stuffy nose.


So yesterday we had snow. Well not to much of it. Not even an inch out at RDU. None the less it was still so beautiful to see it coming down. I love snow. I see it and it makes me home sick for Ohio. Up there we would always get snow in the winter. Down here it is hit or miss on years. Up there it is hit or miss on weeks. I know that Brian would never want to move back up there as he hates the cold so much but I don't. Sometimes I wish that I could move to someplace that had snow half the year like Alaska but that will never happen.


We did however get pics of Kaity out in the snow. Brian took them. She was in her cute little snow suit that we had gotten. We bought it last year and just when it was looking like she wouldn't be able to at least wear it in the snow.....BAM!!!! It snowed!!!! I am so glad that we got the pictures of her in it. They are just to precious as they are her first official snow pics. I know I have pictures for her first everything. Sometimes I wonder whats' harder....having kids OR documenting everything about their childhoods.


It's kinda funny. I remember when I first found out that I was pregnant my mind started to race of projects and books and just all around things that I wanted to do. I probably have the most detailed baby book ever written. I literally kept everything from my pregnancy with her. I am still in the middle of six different projects that I have yet to complete.
Here's another picture of her in the snow

Kaity growing and changing

1/28/2007 11:19:00 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
She really is. I can remember when it would be so hard to get her to smile, but now she giggles and laughs like crazy. She does it more so when she sees one of us. I can remember when I would try and help her to crawl and now she crawls like a pro. Heck she is even standing up on her own with just the smallest bit of help. I guess I can not believe how much she has changed. It absolutely amazes me to see her every day. It is like everyday is a new surprise with her. I just can't wait to see her start walking. I know that everyone is tells me that I will wish the opposite when she starts but not me. I want my baby girl walking.
She is getting her eye teeth in now. I can see them just poking in now. Explains why she is so fussy lately. When they fully come in she will have 8 teeth. Wow I can remember when she had her first one coming in. It is so hard to believe that was back in October. Here it is almost February, it has only been 3 and a half months and she almost has eight in.
Before she used to just make sounds but now she is saying mama and Brian and I are beginning to hear what sounds like the syllables of other words.
I guess all in all I can say I fully understand now when they say children grow up so quickly. I am watching my baby girl do it right in front of me.

I think my baby girl is saying mama!!!!!!!

1/14/2007 07:55:00 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
I have been hearing her say ba ba ba ba lately like she normally does when trying out new syllables. Yet now she has started saying mama and she does it when she is on the floor and wants to be picked up when I am around. She also does it to her daddy as well so I am not the only one. I haven't figured it out yet if she is just saying it because she gets a response out of it or not. I don't think that she understands the correlation between mama and myself. I could be wrong as I am not that up to date on child development. None the less, she is saying mama (OH so happy about that!!!!!) and I respond to her by talking to her when she does say mama. So hopefully if there is no correlation just my responding to her like I do will help build that understanding that there is. I was kinda hoping that her first word would have been dada for Brian. It would have been something special that he would have had with her. I think he wanted her first word to be mama for me.



To my beloved husband
Your eyes which first held me captivated where I stood.
Your smile to dazzle the sun and warm every part of my soul.
Your voice like a sparkling mountain stream which flows into my heart.
Your walk and the way your gracefulness takes my breath away.
Your hands whose caress I crave to hold my face in their tenderness.
Your arms I long to have around my neck as you pull me close to your warmth.
Most of all everything you are changed the way I feel about my life.
I love you, Brian.

If only closed minds came with closed mouths!!!!!

1/05/2007 03:36:00 PM Edit This 0 Comments »
I mean it really is so true. I came up with that quote a while back and it has become the motto that I now live by. So anyway if you are not willing to grow as an individual then just go away. I hate people who feel like they have to better themselves by putting others down by talking shit and creating false shit about them. I admit, I used to be like that, but I choose not to be like that anymore. I feel like I have moved on and I am at that stage in my life where I am going to be me. I say what I mean and I mean what I say. (thank you Judy, my mentor!!!) Whether or not you like it is well, your problem. I am not here to worry about what others think of me as I have been burned by these actions on my part time and time again. Life is trivial or like a high school only if you make it that way for yourself. If you worry about what others say and think of you well then grow up. I choose not to care about others opinions of me. From now on, and my friends that are close to me will tell you, that is how I am going to be....... unconcerned of other peoples personal opinions of me. I am only concerned of peoples opinions who have a direct effect upon my life.

I am very sorry and I whole-heartedly apologize to a certain individual for my actions this past week. I am very aggressive and when I feel like I am being attacked, well let's just say that I tend to revert to my old ways and become the very person that I am not wanting to be. However I will say that my actions were only provoked because of that persons actions.

WOW is all I can say

1/05/2007 02:38:00 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
All I can say in response to his ex-wifes' blog about me on her myspace page is.......childish, simply childish. I didn't intend to upset her but I will fight fire with fire it that is the route she chooses to go down.

Kaitys' baby book

1/03/2007 07:41:00 AM Edit This 0 Comments »
I think that I have become obsessive over working on her babybook. I bought a book from Barnes and Noble right after I found out that I was pregnant with Kaity on 9/22/05. I only know the exact date because I even saved the receipt. I have saved everything from her birth like her U/S pics (2D and the 3D) too her first outfit that she wore home. Basically everything that a mom would normally save. I even saved the pregnancy test that I took, every single paper that I received during her pregnancy (every single one), her umbilical cord (weird but hey) and I did a pre-pregnancy journal plus the post-pregnancy babybook that I have been working on. I bought this wonderful book that like I said before. I have been religious about filling out. Once it is finished in a year or two I am planning on scanning it and uploading the whole thing online. This book is very detailed in a sense that it has you list everything about her as a baby.
I am so proud of myself for keeping it up and filling it out. I can't say that I have been alone in doing this as B loves to fill sections in himself. I think that it is sad that most women will buy a baby book, fill out some sections and then stop or lose interest. Not me. When my daughter is old enough one day to read it I want her to see how much effort was put into preserving her life as a baby. I know that she will appreciate it as it is pretty awesome.

About Me

1/01/2007 01:57:00 PM Edit This 0 Comments »
I was born in Toledo, Ohio at Toledo Hospital on March 20, 1981 at 9:23 a.m. I am a Pisces with a bit of Aries in me. I am sensitive but very outgoing. I am very assertive but know when to back off. Anywho I grew up all over northwest Ohio.......Toledo, Northwood, Millbury, and Luckey to name a few. I am the oldest of four immediate siblings but third oldest of all my siblings. I have two sisters, Gloria (free-spirited person, who I love more than anyone) and Sara (stubborn and set in her ways BUT she is able to hold her own so watch out). My brother Lloyd is a wanderer at heart and will do anything for anyone. I have an older step brother Adam. He is the most accomplished of all my siblings and I have much respect for him as he is making something of himself. I have an older step sister Nicole and a younger step sister Lindsay. I never got along with neither one of them so I don't keep in contact with either.

I have a wonderful mom, Susan, who lives in Toledo with my step dad, Bob, (or should I just say dad as that is really all he is to me) They are the most wonderful parents anyone could possibly have. My step mom, Joy,is also wonderful but I never talk to her because of my real dad. I have never gotten along with my real father as he is the most selfish, hating and uncaring person I know. As kids we bounced back and forth from my mother to my father before finally living with him. I couldn't stand him but he was my father so I tried to love him. We lived with my Aunt Fran, his sister, for a while in Luckey. After she died we moved in with Joy as they were seeing each other before she died. After that things went down hill. My dad showed more love towards his two step kids then his own. We were essentially the slaves of the household. Try doing dishes two to three times a day for 8 people every day for almost 9 years. You will have a greater appreciation for dishwashers. I tried to make my dad love me more by excelling in school and running track and cross country. I graduated with honors from high school. I have a ACT score of 36 and a SAT score of 1575. I never got into trouble at school, was always on time getting home, always did my chores and that still wasn't good enough. I wasn't the greatest runner in the world but my father never came to any of my events. He was even reluctant to go to my graduation. He and my step mom would be sure to attend my step sisters events though.
My father was a very lazy man citing that he couldn't get along with any of his supervisors at any of the places that he worked so he would always quit. He was a roofer so that was easy for him to quit and start someplace else. My father growing up was also very, very, very mentally abusive to us four kids. He was also very physically abusive was well. I can reflect upon myself now and see how and why I have turned out the way that I did. I am the exact opposite of that man. I have a very strong work ethic and I would never dream of hitting a child. I don't give up and I have much respect for authority. A part of me hates that my daughter will grow up not knowing her grandpa but at the same time I don't want to subject her to someone so hateful. I figure that she will grow up knowing Bob as grandpa. The day that I left home was on fathers day which also coincided with his birthday to make a point.

I moved down here to NC in June of '99. I moved in with my Aunt Pam while I was looking for a place to live on my own. I was just happy to be 623 miles away from where I grew up, I was happy to be me for a change and to finally have someone appreciate me for who I was. I was happy to be away from it all.

I met this guy named Steve when I started working at the post office in Chapel Hill. After hanging out a few times it was apparent that we were hitting it off. I was still looking for a place to move to and when he asked if I wanted to move in I said yes. Things were going great for a while and then he askked me to marry him. Well then it got bad because about 6 months later he got invited back for his high school reunion by his best friend. Well he met up with his old high school sweetheart and less than siix months after that he quit his job and moved back to Michigan. Last I heard he had become a far worse alcholic than he already was and became a janitor at some school up there. Don't I feel bad for him :0) I moved back in with my aunt for a while to save some money. My sister Gloria at that point had already moved down here and her and I got a place together. We had a falling out because of who she was hanging around with and she got to pissed at me and moved back. I moved in with Jen Wall after that and then that was when I met Brian.

He and I met at the end of July in 2002. I had fallen in love with him the moment I had met him. He was actually the one who said that he loved me first though. We had a whirlwind romance (we still do) and decided to get married. I moved in with him sometime after his birthday that November. We had ups and downs like any other couple. They were made far more worse by his ex wife. She is way too controling. Anything and everything that affects her life she has to control. She was very unwilling to reason or listen to what anyone had to say since she always had to be right. I would have loved to have gotten to know her as a friend but she probably wouldn't have listened to me.

Brian and I finally got married in December on the 14th. It was what I had always wanted but he just had to discover for himself that it was what he wanted as well. He had a lot of healing to do after his first marriage as she hurt him real bad. But I guess she will never learn as she has already cheated on her third husband with a guy named Jake. It was pretty stupid on her part to admit that little bit of info to my husband. Brian told her not to do it but she did it anyway. I guess once a cheater always a cheater. Brian once told me that he regreted the fact that I wasn't the one he married first. I can see why. He also said that he regreted waiting so long to get married the second time. I guess he wanted to make sure that i wasn't going to turn out to be just like her.

We became pregnant at the end of July and had our beautiful baby girl Kaity nine months later. She was born on May 7th at 4:23 p.m. at Duke Hospital. She weighed 7lbs 9ozs. She was truly a blessing to us. I think that Brian was more excited about her coming then I was. He would look forward to talking to her everyday and "play" with her when she would kick. He talked about her constantly and would show off the 2-D and 3-D U/S pictures that we had of her. He couldn't wait for the prenatal appointments so that he could hear her heartbeat. At some of the visits my Dr. would let Brian use the doppler to find her heartbeat. Oh did he think that was cool!!! He even asked if he could cut the cord and he got to. He was the most wonderful coach and was very excited about the labor and delivery. He even had the nurse get a mirror so that I could see what he was seeing. He is a very proud father and would absolutely love it if Kaity became a daddys' girl. He and I play fight over who gets her. ;)

So he and I now have everything that we could possibly need or want out of life. We have each other and a beautiful daughter. We are getting a new house soon and everything will be perfect. However there have been talks of a baby number two, so we shall soon see.